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That Feeling

Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.

Wrong

I love my mother. I do.
It's just that sometimes, she makes me feel like a complete idiot. I feel so stupid. It's like I'm just wasting space in her area of the world. Everything I say, or even wear is incompetent.

I've felt so out of place lately. It's not just my mother. It's a lot of people. Instead of not saying anything...they feel they have the right to say something that I'm wearing is stupid or weird. I've been into the steampunk fashion lately. I just think it is really cool. So I have a skeleton key necklace. And tonight people were saying "why are you wearing that?" and I'd reply "'Cause I like it.." Their response? "Uhhh ok." *weird look* Is it just me? Am I just imagining things? I don't know. In my opinion, it was rude. I also recently bought some combat boots. All I get are weird looks and people asking "why do you keep wearing those?" I try to ignore it. I mean being different is okay, but it doesn't make me feel better. If you don't like them, it doesn't mean they are stupid or ugly, it just means that you THINK they are. Someone else might think they are awesome.

Also about driving. I'm not the greatest driver in the world. I've been driving a little under 3 months, not even that much. I hardly do drive. But when I have both my parents in the car with me, it's like I'm doing everything wrong.

I just, I just feel like I'm wrong. Me. Everything. Who I am is wrong.
I just don't know how to change this.

Whatever.
I hate saying what I feel.

CONTESTS

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Learning

I learned today that I have exactly one friend. That friend, is of course, my best friend. Even
though she is my cousin, we have been the best of friends since we were young. It helped a lout that our mothers were identical twin sisters who were also best friends. This friend is the
only person who does not annoy me. We have hardly anything in common with each other.
We are different in every way possible when it comes to our appearances. Height, hair, eyes,
weight, clothes. Nothing is the same. While there are many things we don't agree on, there are
others that are perfectly matches. Certain books,shoes, tv shows. But not many. I think that's
what I love about us. I think that's why we get along so well, and why every minute there is
something interesting to us. Opposites attract they say, and I never really thought that was
true about people. I now realize I was wrong. She is the greatest person I know. I never want our friendship to end. It kills me when we don't have time to be around each other. I know it might sound creepy, but I don't have anyone else like she does. I have a few people I talk to or hang out with, but they tire me easily and annoy me to no end. It's not that I don't like them. They just aren't as much as a friend to me as other C.

I also learned that I hate everyone's opinion unless I agree with it. I don't try to. It just seriously pisses me off. I've come to the point where I can't even read YouTube comments because I get so angry with their opinion. I know it's very close minded and douchey of me to do, but I can't stop myself from thing "OMG can I please punch you in your stupid face?!" I try to ignore everyone as much as possible now because I don't want to seem like a mean person.

Just kinda ranting.

Books!

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I Live

TWISTED SISTER!!!!!!!!!11!

I'm here!!!!!!!
A couple of weeks ago I went to camp. Oh good grief, it was so tiring! ...and awkward. Y'know why? The kid that likes me was there...and it just is awkward. Anyways. Yep, that's me right there at camp! It was only from Friday to Sunday morning. I got up at 4:45 am every morning because I like to be alone when I get ready in the morning. Plus there was only two showers with only a wall separating us..and I'm just a modest person..so early it was.
Here are some photos I took:

I have more, but I don't want to post them all.

Anyways I've been SOOO so so so busy, but as you can see I have been posting blogs
for book giveaways. I just couldn't help myself, they're too amazing! I was so tempted.

I bought three new books this month..yay! PLUS I got the first two Maximum Ride books, so I'll start those sometime soon. Anyways here are the books I got:

I am so excited to read them! YAY!

Say what?

Oh, blog. It's been a long few days.
The girls have been at the grandparents house so it's been rather quiet here.
I LOVE IT!!
Anyways I've spent the better half of today
reading this lovely new-found blogger's posts:
http://readthisbook.wordpress.com/

She does book reviews, giveaways and contests...and I'm certainly entering her latest one. I'd be a fool no doubt if I didn't. I love reading!

Speaking of books! You know that FANG book I got for Easter? Apparently its a series of novels...six books in front of it. As you can imagine it was a big ol' *facepalm* when I found out. So last night, after having a lovely dinner at O'Charley's with my Nana, we went to Books-A-Million and she bought me the first book. She's great!
Since there was a lack of photos to post I'll give you an amusing one:

Easter Weekend

Good evening interwebs!
Here is a summary of my weekend:
Well, actually, the pictures are from Saturday. Easter weekend was great for the most part, I loved it. Friday I saw The Last Song with a bunch of women from church and on Saturday I went to see Clash of the Titans with a bunch of men from my church. I know, weird, right? haha. Before we went to the movies though I had to go to an Easter egg hunt with my family and some families from church. I might have possibly stolen some candy...As I am doing this blog I am watching The Lord of the Rings. I've been craving it for a while now..I just love Arwen. She's great. I have a weakness for movies/books/tv shows that have some sort of heroine.

The Last Song. My rating? 3.5 stars of of 5. This was a generally good movie. Sad though, and I have to admit it I came very close to crying. I did get teary-eyed at one point with Jonah. There were the moments where you just go "awww," trust me. I did not do it aloud..I got a rep. to protect here! All of the women I went with didn't leave that theater with a dry eye. A few parts were cheesy, and Miley Cyrus was a terrible choice for the role of Ronnie. I'm in the middle of reading the book now and even in the movie I could tell that she was too girly for the part of this character. Ronnie is supposed to be a dark person. Will and Ronnie are supposed to look completely incompatible together. Oh and those front teeth! Miley, what the heck? You are incredibly rich, YOU CAN AFFORD TO GET THAT CROOKED TOOTH FIXED. Every moment I see her open her mouth I cannot go without a giggle or a snort of annoyance. They say it will affect her singing if she fixes it...yeah you can only go uphill from that voice, I'm just sayin'..

Clash of the Titans gets a lovely 4 out of 5 stars. I did watch the 80's version. I could barely get through that movie without laughing at how old it is. I love picking out the differences in technology from now and then. This movie had just enough action for my liking, and enough talking about things that actually matter as well. I've noticed in movies lately they have incredibly awesome action scenes then dialogue that has nothing to do with anything. I was not, however, disappointed with this movie. Only 4 stars because I felt like there was just something missing. I couldn't put my finger on it though. Maybe the fact that it was a movie that I will mostly likely only see 2 times in my entire life, if not 1? I don't like 3D movies. There was nothing really...3D about it, and the glasses just gave me an unwanted headache. I loved the ending though. The ageless chick was awesome, no matter what anyone says. When Zuess brought her back I totally said "Yay!"

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Sunday, I got a book!!! That's right. OH, yeah. Plus a bunch of candy...and sidewalk chalk! I love Easter. Anyways, I cannot wait to read this book, it looks awesome. I've heard nothing but great things about James Patterson.

After we ate lunch (chicken pot pie) with my Nana, Great Aunt, and cousin, we headed down to my Grammy's house for dinner. I ended up watching White Oleander with other C while she cleaned her room. We got to talk and stuff. Later on that night, I went with her to see The Last Song (yes, again, she didn't see it, jeez!) with other C, C's boyfriend J, and C's brother R. It was fun since we went at about 9pm so no one was there but us, haha.

I'm getting rather tired now so I believe I shall finish this movie tomorrow.

Shannanigans

What have I been doing these past two weeks?! Oh that's right, these things:

Oh, pictures, strange how I look better in person than I did in those directory photos! Oh jeez it was awful. No one in my family was satisfied..but had two to choose from and we chose the lesser of the two evils. ha! Anyways we all wore pink/black/white with jeans. My parents wore black and my sisters wore dresses with white and pink, and I wore black with pink. So at least I didn't have to wear the pink shirt, yay! I actually love the new shirt I got which I am wearing in the photo. I have this thing where I love to hide something about me in my pictures, I'm a lil' weird I know.

Also last week /Monday/ me and my family went to Texas Roadhouse with another family that we are friends with. Mmmm, it was yummy! I didn't have that much of a good time though. I was at the very end of the table, yeah y'know, when no one sits across from you. Then you're just like, on the outside. Not to mention all the adults were at the other end so I was sitting by children under the age of 10. So I ate, and tried to control my sister who chose to completely ignore me and keep being a brat. I was just not in the mood. I put my headphones in and chilled with Flyleaf. A band that I love extremely, great new album!
Oh and this is what I had; Grilled shrimp, bread, loaded baked potato, and salad. Well, more of lettuce with salt/pepper and ranch to the side. It was so delicious. What is it I am drinking? A Dr.Pepper with no ice of course!

When I am not going out I am reading this wonderful series: Gemma Doyle trilogy. I love the Victorian age-the language, the English, the Gypsies, the clothes, oh I love it! I plan to build a time machine and go to the 1800's and be wealthy woman of class and run off with the gypsies! Don't judge me..I'm homeschooled, I have time to think of these things. I do recommend these books though, very lovely.

Which brings me to the present day. I've been so freaking drained. It's been an awful past couple weeks overall. I mean, I had a few good times. Like bowling with the other C and her boyfriend J along with S. I had a good time. I've missed other C so much. We are hardly together anymore. Sometimes you just need someone y'know? I just really needed that time with her, but more than anything I needed to get away from the loneliness that is totally consuming me. I hate that when I miss someone. I just get this really empty feeling inside me, and it eats at me for days at a time. Eventually I just have to make contact with that person in some way or I won't be able to think.
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Anyways. There has been a lot of drama this past week too. I mean really? Do I sound like I need this kind of BS right now? Here's what happened: A boy likes me. A friend that is a boy likes me. A friend that is 13 years old that is a boy likes me. He is almost four years younger than I am. One night that boy who shall be named R told my friend, A, that he liked me. (apparently has for months) Me and my mother kind of assumed that he did anyways, but it was just weirder when it was 'known.' So I knew for about a week, no big deal, still talked to him and what not. I told my parents about it because well I'm close to my mom unlike some teens. Here's how it played out: R told A that he liked me, and A told C, then C told M, and M told great aunt, and great aunt told son, J, who just so happens to be best friends with R and J already knew, but didn't know that I knew, and so he got the bright idea to tell R that I knew! I know, confusing. So R got angry with A for telling me which she didn't and A got mad at me and my mom and I'm like wtf? Shut up. I don't need your crap, you shouldn't have told me, or even mention it! So it's you who started it! I didn't say that though, cause I'm nice. The whole thing is over now, but it's really awkward for me to talk to him. He was upset that I didn't tell him that I knew and what was I supposed to say? Oh hey, I know you like me. Right, cause that would have played out nicely.

Sorry to write a freaking book, but I just needed to vent.
New post tomorrow about my books!

I'll be back

Ok, so I know I've been MIA for this past week.
I'm busy. I'm tired. I feel like blah.
And I just feel unhappy.


I'll be back , I promise. I will have an interesting post & one on what I have been up to.



I will

Supernatural

Well, I've done it again. I don't mean to. I can't help..it just happens.
One minute I'm scrolling through netflix, and the next I'm renting a
television show. That's not even the worst part! I get addicted to these
television shows..and I buy them later on. BUT, I have a legit reason!
This show is quite possibly my favorite show that is still in the making.

I am proud to say that I LOVE SUPERNATURAL!
I've just finished the first season (Thursday night) and I was so angry
with the ending! I mean how can they do this to me?! Ending in a car
wreck that could possibly end the life of Papa Winchester? 'Cause I know
the guys will be okay..there's five seasons! I can't wait for the next disk!

Dean is my favorite, although Sam is good too. They are both so amusing.
My parents look at me funny when they hear me laughing at the computer
screen hah! Well I'm rather tired, I might type more in this later.

All Smiles

I know, I know. Shame on you C. Shame on you. So much for posting every day sharing your thoughts on things that no one cares about. Jeeeez. Give me a break, I've been busy! Today I went to Tumbleweed for my mother's birthday (and her twin) and it was mighty tasty. I decided to take a picture of myself while I was there..haha. Which you can see to the left. Also today I had to practice for the Easter program (carrying banner) so no nap time for me..which I was NOT happy about. Then afterward we had a fundraiser taco night for our youth..that was delicious! I had a quesdilla (uhh spelled wrong most likely) with sour cream and you guessed it, nacho cheese on top. Don't judge me! It tastes amazing. Oh and in case you are wondering, this boringness will continue.

Since I did not post Saturday.. Here's what I did. I woke up at about oh 11am to the sound of my mother watching her New Moon DVD that she bought at 7 that morning. Apparently people wake up at 6am on Saturdays. Who knew? Later on we went ice skating with the youth..but most of us ended up playing cards (kimps/kemps) in the lobby, which was SO much more fun. We had a great time.

Which brings us to Monday tomorrow. Oh Monday, how everyone hates you. Oh well. I promise I will do something more interesting tomorrow!

A New Beginning

Hello, hello. With this being my first post and all I suppose I won't do too much on here. Not very happy at the moment because blogger will not let me do 'justify full.' Argh!

On another note..Today is Friday. This Friday in particular, is the day of family photos for our church directory. Which means,
stress, makeup, and pink. I think we all know what the worst one of those three are. Pink. I like the color pink; I don't like it on me. Maybe possibly I might post the photos when they are finished. No promises though!

Well, time to go do makeup and hair.
(sigh)