Love Contests?

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Go enter!
Everyone's doin' it ;)

That Feeling

Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.

Wrong

I love my mother. I do.
It's just that sometimes, she makes me feel like a complete idiot. I feel so stupid. It's like I'm just wasting space in her area of the world. Everything I say, or even wear is incompetent.

I've felt so out of place lately. It's not just my mother. It's a lot of people. Instead of not saying anything...they feel they have the right to say something that I'm wearing is stupid or weird. I've been into the steampunk fashion lately. I just think it is really cool. So I have a skeleton key necklace. And tonight people were saying "why are you wearing that?" and I'd reply "'Cause I like it.." Their response? "Uhhh ok." *weird look* Is it just me? Am I just imagining things? I don't know. In my opinion, it was rude. I also recently bought some combat boots. All I get are weird looks and people asking "why do you keep wearing those?" I try to ignore it. I mean being different is okay, but it doesn't make me feel better. If you don't like them, it doesn't mean they are stupid or ugly, it just means that you THINK they are. Someone else might think they are awesome.

Also about driving. I'm not the greatest driver in the world. I've been driving a little under 3 months, not even that much. I hardly do drive. But when I have both my parents in the car with me, it's like I'm doing everything wrong.

I just, I just feel like I'm wrong. Me. Everything. Who I am is wrong.
I just don't know how to change this.

Whatever.
I hate saying what I feel.

CONTESTS

I know I know, ANOTHER contest. I can't help it, I love reading too much!
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Learning

I learned today that I have exactly one friend. That friend, is of course, my best friend. Even
though she is my cousin, we have been the best of friends since we were young. It helped a lout that our mothers were identical twin sisters who were also best friends. This friend is the
only person who does not annoy me. We have hardly anything in common with each other.
We are different in every way possible when it comes to our appearances. Height, hair, eyes,
weight, clothes. Nothing is the same. While there are many things we don't agree on, there are
others that are perfectly matches. Certain books,shoes, tv shows. But not many. I think that's
what I love about us. I think that's why we get along so well, and why every minute there is
something interesting to us. Opposites attract they say, and I never really thought that was
true about people. I now realize I was wrong. She is the greatest person I know. I never want our friendship to end. It kills me when we don't have time to be around each other. I know it might sound creepy, but I don't have anyone else like she does. I have a few people I talk to or hang out with, but they tire me easily and annoy me to no end. It's not that I don't like them. They just aren't as much as a friend to me as other C.

I also learned that I hate everyone's opinion unless I agree with it. I don't try to. It just seriously pisses me off. I've come to the point where I can't even read YouTube comments because I get so angry with their opinion. I know it's very close minded and douchey of me to do, but I can't stop myself from thing "OMG can I please punch you in your stupid face?!" I try to ignore everyone as much as possible now because I don't want to seem like a mean person.

Just kinda ranting.

Books!

Okay so y'know how I LOVE books?
Well I have a chance to win some, and anyone who just happens
to read this blog, can too.
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I Live

TWISTED SISTER!!!!!!!!!11!

I'm here!!!!!!!
A couple of weeks ago I went to camp. Oh good grief, it was so tiring! ...and awkward. Y'know why? The kid that likes me was there...and it just is awkward. Anyways. Yep, that's me right there at camp! It was only from Friday to Sunday morning. I got up at 4:45 am every morning because I like to be alone when I get ready in the morning. Plus there was only two showers with only a wall separating us..and I'm just a modest person..so early it was.
Here are some photos I took:

I have more, but I don't want to post them all.

Anyways I've been SOOO so so so busy, but as you can see I have been posting blogs
for book giveaways. I just couldn't help myself, they're too amazing! I was so tempted.

I bought three new books this month..yay! PLUS I got the first two Maximum Ride books, so I'll start those sometime soon. Anyways here are the books I got:

I am so excited to read them! YAY!